Birds and the 'Bee's

it would be a hard week for me, and it's already starting. why could a few days of bliss lead to a long-term misery? i'm not an emotional person, or so i thought... i'm re-learning things about myself. it's a good thing for me to realize, though kind of late, that i'm not jaded after all, and recent events have told me so. i've never given much thought about the birds and 'bee's, but it's entirely different now. it would be a long wait, but at least i'm hopeful now. this post is not making any sense... and i think i'll stop here for now. whoever made me write this, i would like to thank you.

Hopeless

i guess that's what i feel now... well, not only now as in today, but i think for the past couple of years. grabe no, pero seriously, i feel like i'm been in a rut for the longest time, career-wise that is... a career rut that has rippled into my personal life. 8 years and still i've yet to find fulfillment in what i'm doing, and two companies that has somehow managed to keep me imbecile. i know it's kinda difficult to understand where i'm coming from, but it would take an awful lot of space for me to detail my journey through IT... i'll think i'll just post my resume, harhar!

i've always been a "non-worrier"... taking each day at a time. but as the years kept on piling up, you can help but wonder what's there for tomorrow. maybe, it's not yet time... or this is how God planned it to be. i know i couldn't ask for anything more, but i just wish i could be more useful, whether to my family, my work or my friends. am i destined to shine... or am i destined to be in the background?

so much for a first blog... nice day.